sooo i told myself i wouldnt stay up this late!

yeppppp here it is almost 3 am and im still up and online, haha. i wanted to go to bed early too! damnit. im so tired, i ve been working alot and im sick of it! BLAH. hmmm so whats new with me. hung out with chad over the weekend, good times! haha and yes i am now officially an AEPHI!!! Initiation was Friday night, and i love it. im having a blast!!! I cant believe school is almost over. Im gonna be sooo happy for summer, but i think Im really gonna miss living in the dorms. i mean i dont like it THAT much, but im really going to miss all the people here... and always just coming back after parties and everything else. lots of good memories. i guess i better live it up for the next 4 weeks! Its funny how so much can change so fast. I remember moving in here...my life was so different. But i guess it all happens for a reason! and i love the way my life is. ive met so many awesome people and i wouldnt change it for the world. i think i am going to move in with my grandma in dearborn heights for the summer, and then me and erica are getting and apartment in the fall! canttttttt wait! but the grams house will be good, free food and i can come and go as i please, plus its 2 minutes away from my job. Well, i am sooo tired. im gonna hit the sack. goodnight!

Moulin Rouge<3

I am such a dork, but I absolutely LOVE love stories. Movies with love stories in them always seem to make it to my list of favorites. I would say my favorite movie is Moulin Rouge. I asolutely LOVE it. I could watch it a million times and never get sick of it. I love it not only because it is a love story, but it is also a musical. I remember the first time I that I saw it. I believe I was in 8th grade, and I went with one of my best friends who had lived across the street from me at that time. We were both really into musicals and singing, and especially into love stories. The most I can remember is that there were not many people in the theater, but that I cried really hard at the end! (I am really emotional in movies, haha! I cry at everything, and I get really involved and yell at the screen!) Anyways, I did not watch that movie or remember much of it until later when I was in highschool, I belive my junior year. I was in choir class, and my friend Rochelle and I had some free time and we were listening to one of her CD's. The theme song from Moulin Rouge came on, and I remembered hearing it before. I just fell in love with it all over! I don't believe I watched it any time after that, but soon the time would come. I believe it was a summer night and I was sitting in the basement at my old house, flipping through the movie channels. I had my bowl of popcorn and my pop, and I was in my PJ's. I had dated a guy for almos a year, and we were on and off for a while after that, and I was sad about him a lot. I was just having one of those nights, so I just wanted to stay in and watch movies. As I flipped through, I came across Moulin Rouge! I wasn't sure if it was that movie at first, but I watched and found that it was. Since that night I fell in love with that movie, and it is one of my all time favorites. I actually got all of my friends into it, and we have movie nights where we watch Moulin Rouge. I bought the CD, and a lot of my friends did too! We would sing the songs and just be goofy about it. There are so many memories I have from watching this movie with different people, and many times I can remember the situation. Sometimes we even watched it if were sad, having boy troubles, or just needed a good cry. Sometimes we watched it if we were in a "lovey mood", or watch it just to melt over Ewan McGregor's voice. I remember once that this movie brought two of my friends, Jordan and Natalie, to date! haha. I remember him singing the songs with us, because he knew the movie and loved it too! Good times. I guess I didn't realize how this movie connects a lot of people together!

"Never knew, I could feel like this, like I've never seen the sky before, want to vanish inside your kiss, every day I love you more and more. Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing? Telling me to give you everything! Seasons may change, winter to spring. But I love you, until the end of time."
-"Come What May" Moulin Rouge!

I love love LOVE the songs! ANDDDD Ewan McGregor!

PS:

these are my lyrics for the night/week....or just for a while...because i love this song. and i love the lyrics!


Gary Allan-Life Ain't Always Beautiful


Life ain't always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down, it can break your heart

Life ain't always beautiful
You think you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day
But the struggle makes you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has it's own way of takin' it sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life aint always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride

Life aint always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walkin' all these lonely miles
And I wish for just one minute I could see your pretty face
Guess I can dream, but life dont work that way

But the struggles makes me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has it's own way of takin' its sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful
But I know I'll be fine
Hey, life aint always beautiful
But its a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride

late night ramblings

yessss here it is at 3 am and im blogging! haaha. well my typing will not be proper simply because i do not feel like making it proper or making it look nice. so im sittin here listening to keith urban, becuase i absolutely love him! <3 and im tired as hell, but i find i do this a lot. i sit here, at my computer, for hours at a time. just because im bored and i can. i talk to people on aim and i go on my space and facebook, i download music, and i eat food and drink hot chocolate. its become almost a ritual...i do it too much. sometimes i wish i would just sit down and watch TV... but im addicted to the stupid computer. blahhhh!! so i work too much. way too much. although i need it, i have a lot to pay for! and a lot to save for as well. life is stressful right now. its the last four weeks of school...and i need to do good. i need to get good grades this semester. there is a lot of final sorority stuff this week...active appreciation is on tuesday, and initiation is on friday. we had retreat on friday and it was soo much fun! my big sis is ASHLEY!!! i love her so much. im really glad i joined AEPHI, its a lot of fun. right now it is just stressful due to having to pay for it...and my bills...and everything else. work has been stressful as well. ahhhhhhhh christ! (in the words of dane cook) haha. i am tired. i have gotten no sleep lately, oh well. life is too short to sleep. i wanna live as much as i can! i have the next 2 days off thank God!!! : ) hmm.....what to say. i cant wait for the summer. i wish it would just get warm...i keep saying this but i mean it! It needs to get warm. i feel like playing softball! alrite alrite well im going to go. OHHHHH I hung out with Chad this weekend! hehe I like him but its just funny...i dont think we will ever get serious. well, goodnite : )

wonderful

Well, here I am, 1:30 in the morning on a Wednesday night. I have to wake up early for my class at 9:30, and I know I'll probably be late. I have to say I really love the show "Sex and the City". It's really such a great show! I love the quotes...and how it I can relate so much to their lives. I have some awesome quotes that I will put in here:

"Maybe our mistakes are what make our fate. Without them, what would shape our lives? Perhaps if we never veered off course, we wouldn't fall in love, or have babies, or be who we are. After all, seasons change. So do cities. People come into your life and people go. But it's comforting to know the ones you love are always in your heart. And if you're very lucky, a car ride away. "


"I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous."

"I admit it's tempting to wish for the perfect boss, the perfect parent, or the perfect outfit. But maybe the best any of us can do is not quit, play the hand we've been dealt, and accessorize what we've got. "


I really love quotes, especially ones dealing with life and getting through things. OHHH and here is one more!

"No matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you'll never get through it without your friends. "

I think that one if my favorite for now. I'm still trying to get over my ex-boyfriend and I just absolutely could not do it without my friends. I love my friends more than anything! They mean the world to me.

Today I worked 4-10 and tomorrow I work 4-10 as well. This weekend is going to be really busy. Friday we have our retreat for my sorority, and I find out who my big sis is! I'm excited to see who it is. I think it will be a good time. I work Saturday AND Sunday 2-10. Next week will be pretty busy as well! We have active appreciation on Tuesday, which is where my pledge sisters and I put together an event for the actives. It should be fun, but it will be a lot of work! Next Friday is my annitiation, and then I will finally be a sister! It should be fun. I'm gettin really excited for summer. I wish it would start getting warmer out since it's officially spring now, however, it seems we are still misfortuned with all this cold weather. BOOOOO on that. haha. I am watchin this hilarious movie called "The Birdcage". It has Robin Williams and Gene Hackman in it, and it is just so funny. This is going to be random, but I am feeling awfully random tonight. I have really been missing my mom lately. She died when I was 9 of breast cancer, and I just miss her more than ever. Things have been hard lately, but I know I can make it through it all. I am a very strong person just like my mother was, and I don't want to let her down. Actually, I don't want to let myself down. Well I think I'll write more later, I need to go to bed! Goodnight!

its so late...

its so late and i just remembered i have to write in this thing! well finally spring break is here...and i LOVE being home. im going to type this lazily so there will be no capital letters and none of that just because i don't feel like it and because it is almost 4 am. i live my at my friend rachel's house when i come home and im on her computer...she is sleeping right next to me and i feel bad because i think my typing is waking her up...so i am trying to type quietly hahaha! well i LOVE being home. i mean it is kind of boring...everyone's spring breaks are different so not many people are home, but i just love to be back in the home town area, and just staying in a house and not a small dorm. honestly i cant wait for summer. i love living at school and im going to miss it, but im sick of going to class. haha. i guess i better get used to it cuz im sure ill be in school for a lottttt longer. i have to work A LOT this week, so its not much of a spring break for me. i had 2day off and it was SOOO nice outside. it was like 60 degrees! i loved it. in new news, my ex boyfriend randomly appeared back into my life yesterday(saturday) by showing up at my work. he came to show me his new crotch rocket that he just bought. i hadnt talked to him in over a month...and i was doing good not talking to him because when i do talk to him i miss him. well then 2day he came over to my friend rachels to show her his bike as well, and we all hung out for a bit and it just made me miss him so much. so 2nite has just been crappy, cuz i cant stop thinking about him. UGHHH i hate guys. it sounds like im being dramatic about it, but i hate being alone. i actually just got off the phone with my ex ex ex bf, he was like my first love. we were the best of friends...and its good to still talk to him. he always makes me feel better. I'll tell ya about my weekend really quick then im heading to bed....Friday night i worked and then went out to a hookah bar with some old friends i hadnt seen in forever! they go to central and michigan state so we had an awesome time catching up on things. then we went back to my friend josh's house and sat in his hot tub. it was fun. saturday i worked as well and then went out with my friend amanda for a bit...we had a good time. i slept in 2day and it felt awesome. my friend rachel(the girl i live with when im home) just came back from FLORIDA today (i hate her for being able to go the Florida) so i hung out with her for a while and my ex boyfriend...then i went to the movies with my friend Aleks from school. We seen 16 blocks...it was pretty good. Well I'll write more 2morrow, i just hope i remember!!

soo happyyy! : )

WELLLL I am officially on spring break now! Although I'm not going anywhere, which really sucks. I want to get out of Michigan badly. The weather is supposed to be really warm this weekend though, so that should be awesome! I'm just kind of bummed I have to work the next 3 days straight. I don't want to work at allllllll! I just wanna go to Florida or something! It's not fair. oh well. Anyways I'm in a really good mood today because last night I actually stayed in and studied for my government exam, and I feel like I did really good on it! WOOO! It's like the first test that I feel I've done really good on since I've come to college. hahah! That is terrible but it's the truth. If I get a B or higher my friend Matt is taking me out to dinner, WOO! so hopefully i did well. I might go out to the bar tonight after work. I'm not sure yet, but most likely that's what I'll end up doing. I'm finally getting ahead on my bills, so I don't have to give my whole checks to my aunt to pay my bills! I have extra money finally! But a lot of it has to go to paying for the sorority stuff, which sucks, but it's worth it. I love AEPHI, and I'm really really glad I joined. Right now I am listening to this guy Avant, he's an R&B singer, and I absolutely love his voice. He has some good songs! I need to stop forgetting to write in this blog. But mainly I am soo excited we don't have classes all week, I really needed a break! I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE SUMMER. I wish the warm weather would get here faster. Well, I'm gonna go. I'll write more laaaaaater.

yep

I am feeling pretty stressed out. There is so much to do this week and next week and I feel like I can't get anything done because of work. I have Saturday off so that is the day I will be taking my pictures for this actual project! ahhhh! So I really won't have much time to do it. That's ok though, I'm more of a last minute person. I just want to make sure it's good. I should have Sunday off of work too, and hopefully my boss won't give me as many hours this week. My 9:35 class was cancelled this morning! I was so happy I got to sleep in a little longer. I still feel tired though, and my whole day will be spent at work which sucks. I'm also stressed because there is a lot to do for the sorority. We have to do a philanthropy, and we chose to buy toys and things for children at a children's hospital. Luckily my friend Heather is going to just get the stuff for me, and I gave here money. I wouldn't have any time to buy it! We are going to the hospital Friday morning! Also, money is tight. I LOVE being in the sorority, it's just expensive. I'm sure I'll find a way to pay for it. I'm hungry right now. haha. Well I'm gonna go and try and work on this project a bit more, although I really can't because I don't have any pictures really. ha! Sorry for being a procrastinator. : (